More of a vent than an update

I'm seriously about ready to just say screw it, he doesn't need the meds after all. It's been over a week, and today I find out out that the medicin is ready, but there's an $84 copay because it's not one of the insurance's "formularies". Um, sorry, I'm not paying that every month. Now I'm supposed to call both insurance companies (because N is on Healthy Families and Matthew's work due to a mix up) and find out first what doesn't need a prior authorization and second get a list of formularies and have them fax that to the ped's office. I just sat on hold with Healthy Families for over 15 minutes and finally hung up because N was screaming at me and needed his diaper changed. I'm extra stressed because the office manager at the ped's (who I've been dealing with all week) will be gone all next week, and then we'll be gone the week after that, so I feel like if I don't get it taken care of today it won't happen until the end of the month, and then what's the point anyway, he'll probably grow out of it in another month or so. I'm seriously done. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I cannot spend all day on hold trying to find out what is and isn't covered. Apparently it's some super secret list because I can't look it up online, and the doctor's office doesn't know what's on it. Ugg, I'm so frustrated!!

This is all on top of my already stressful week of being bitten every time I nurse and screamed at every time I offer something other than crackers, toast, or puffs as a meal.